whats in a status

so i'm going to two weddings in may, very exciting! funny how the weekend in between is the birthday of yours truly. and mother's day.

no, not getting married. no, not having a baby. but, turning a year older and wiser. how do i feel about that?

it's true that all girls think about marriage since well, birth... and guys only think about well, getting laid. i have girlfriends who cant wait for their handsome husband-to-be to come sweep them off their feet and carry them into the beautiful garden of family life. me, sure... but not yet... no rush please.

perhaps it's because i've always had relationships in the past, regardless the depth. through the joy and sorrow, i distinctly remember experiencing one moment of true enlightenment. it's a lesson of life i really had to make myself learn. my life is for me.

yeah, thats it. my life is for me. so simple, so easy. self-explanatory, but i didnt get it. is there such thing as being too selfless?

maybe i was hurt once and this was just a selfish reflex. maybe i was tired of trying to please everyone. either way, i honestly believe it starts within. i want to know myself, make myself happy, succeed for myself. in turn, my confidence will esteem and build an aura that can only be described as a great big yellow smiley face! and when i make someone else happy, that is when i know what makes me happy and successful in life.

not really sure if i answered my own question of how i feel. my birthday is coming up, i am fine with right now. all i wish for myself: work hard, have an open mind, enjoy now and keep looking forward

i am happy just to be me.