same or different

"apples, oranges, bananas, grapes..."

so many things have changed since my last entry. i would have never thought i would be staying in another country across the world, sitting in front of a computer typing this same blog, thinking in perspective of another person, perhaps a more mature me... could it be?

can i compare myself then and now? there and here? who am i in the present and who do i want to be in the future? being here makes me open my eyes to the world to face reality to decide what i want. maybe life should not be this dramatic, but i do consider logically, analytically, emotionally across all angles. maybe life does not have one right answer, but i do hope for the best given the parameters, possibilities, feelings that i know. maybe i am not sure who i should be, but i will continue to yearn to be who i want to be.

inspiration: tech speak after helping to build software for a database