the dog days are over, the dog days are done

"no pressure"

our lives are so short here on earth.  everyday you decide how you want to spend the rest of this life through the actions you take.  it can be a decision subconsciously commonplace.  or it can be a decision so deeply contemplative you spent every waking moment dreaming so you can feel like you are awake in a dream.

sometimes i wish i could tell the young and naive me years ago about all that i have learned.  no, lil' lanlan, you don't know everything in the world.  no, you can't act like a child forever.  and yes, things will be okay.

maybe then, would i have grown up sooner.  would i have been more prepared. would i have made better decisions.

but i wouldn't be who i am today.  be so blessed in this amazing unplanned plan.  and yes, things are still okay.

i finally get it.

you ride the rollercoaster until you are not afraid anymore.  you force away your sweaty palms gripped tightly around that metal bar and hold your hands up high in the air, like you just don't care.  you trust yourself. you no longer hate the bumpy ups and downs, you embrace the excitement.  you appreciate the thrill and enjoy the breeze.

inspiration: reflecting and thinking too much

weekly update:
- fri, 2/11 - village burger bar, jblack's, kolaches, sleepover
- sat, 2/12 - jeng chi, donald's bday house party
- fri, 2/18 - stephen/josh's housewarming mad men party
- sat, 2/19 - dinner at tan tan, hang out at jinpei's
- thurs, 2/24 - blue fish with the guys
- fri, 2/25 - eric wu's whirlyball bday
- sat, 2/26 - chili & poker night at mary's, anthony luu's going away at zouk
- mon, 2/28 - dinner at chef hsu with jean
- fri, 3/4 - atx - g'raj mahal, icenhauser
- sat, 3/5 - atx - not your mama's, kona grill at the domain, barbq/party at clubhouse, union park, chi'lantro
- sun, 3/6 - atx - hoover's, coco's cafe, momoko's