days when you question the days

"is it just me or is it hot in there?"

why is it that i go through life trying so hard to please others that i forget to watch out for myself?
why do i care so much and naively believe that the world will always do the same for me?
why must i refuse to listen to the advice of others but instead insist on betting on the shadow of good i see?

in the end, i go and get hurt anyways

when will i learn from my mistakes?
when will i grow up and realize that nothing is as good as it seems?
when will i finally face reality and see the world as it is?

from the beginning, i knew but believed anyways