simply, today

"the good"

it's my third time over the last few days clicking on "new post" in an attempt to put into words how i've been feeling.  many times we write only from extreme emotions or during grand events, while a simple quiet epiphany about yourself somehow wants to be kept calm and collected until the thought in your head can finally be deliberately expressed with just the right words and without the clumsiness of another life rant.

why do i look for only the bad in the good?
and why do i look for the good in only the bad?

is it my fear of heading down the wrong paths that led me to hurt before?  is it my fear to commit to something with even a slight degree of uncertainty?  or, simply that i push away anything that gets too close because of my fear of disappointment?

just seems easier this way.