when you just want to smile each waking day

"like a check mate"

sometimes we debate in our heads
trying to figure out how to feel,
replaying over and over past events,
deciding between right and wrong,
planning our careful moves
only to discover the different consequences,
like a well-played game of chess.

interesting concept told by such the emotional girl,
but does it not make sense
the reason behind who i am now;
the desire to become better
the safeguard from our past
the wish for the best,
like a protective king defending his queen.

so here we are at a stalemate
between logic and emotion,
and rationality is robotic
while undisciplined creates chaos;
we cannot forget to experience
just because we fear the hurt,
like a brave pawn on the front line.

i used to believe passion and spontaneity made for the ultimate love,
but past the cloud of crazy and the frenzy of instability,
now i see the beauty in the simplicity of just being,
i understand the enjoyment in the moments of just sharing,
while still remembering my own dreams
but also naturally caring... and waiting...
for a chivalrous knight in shining armor.


weekly update:
- thurs, 10/13 - vy's bday lunch at noodle wave
- fri, 10/14 - vineel's going-away lunch at olive garden, vy/vineel's happy hour at mccormick & schmick's, sambuca uptown, bar at the ritz, lucy's sleepover
- sat, 10/15 - late lunch at king's noodle, bubble tea from tap house, shopping at galleria for tribal feather headband, food shopping at kroger, fried chicken watching revenge (tv show) & horrible bosses (movie)
- sun, 10/16 - study, cowboys vs patriots game at primebar