why is 1 afraid of 1?

"good looking out"

i've seen movies where people, usually elderly, would express their outlook on life and admit their fear of being alone.  he or she either desires companionship in his/her daily life and finds comforting the thought of having someone next to them should they take their last breath.

i've witnessed situations where two people stay together for the wrong reason. i understand no one enjoys being lonesome, but is it better to remain intact by status but lonely in reality?  is it just a delay of the inevitable break-up to hide the gap until the next person you date?

i've heard studies where doctors indicate social interaction to be an essential part of a person's health.  it promotes an overall well-rounded lifestyle and keeps in tune emotions and schedules.  forming strong relationships with others provides not only structure but also a sense of self worth.

not sure exactly why, but i have never been afraid of being alone. it's not to say i'm an arrogant player or something.  maybe i am just lucky to always have supportive family and friends by my side.  or i am just naive to never thought much of it.  perhaps it's my stand for independent women that prevents me to admit i need you. or it's my pride that keeps me from saying that i am a better person with you.  we would both never be alone if you look out for my number one, and i yours.

inspiration: "the 15 or 20 seconds after a man reaches his climax is the realest moment he'll ever have in his life" - drake in response to the question "are you lonely?" in elle magainze

weekly update:
- wed, 1/4 - holler
- thurs, 1/5 - humperdink's
- fri, 1/6 - happy hour at sambuca & ringo's pub, houlihan's
- sun, 1/8 - b&n, paint