2dream or not2dream?

"brutal honesty"

so many times i've longed for the chance to be there. how often i wished for the moment to even potentially exist. too frequent the thoughts raced across my mind only to sadly fade.

and then it happens.

there, i stared with my eyes wide open into the darkness. there, i waited for the grand entrance of some fairy tale emotion to rush through me.  there, i admitted reluctantly to myself the emptiness i felt and the reality i faced.

what happened?

change. within the heart with a scarred crack. without the same ability to be natural. withheld by built barriers in fear of hurt.

the next thing to happen...

is to wake up, from the dream. of false hope, of constant surreality, of familiar comfort.

inspiration: reinterpreting "the best way to make a dream come true is to wake up" - paul valery


weekly update:
- fri, 1/13 - happy hour at fox&hound, mavs vs bucks game at aa center, shiloh at club dada, ghostbar, late night steak&shake
- sun, 1/15 - yogurtea, v bistro parcel & netflix
- mon, 1/16 - lunch at texas de brazil with lucy/dorian/jinpei/max
- tues, 1/17 - lunch at caravelle with v, study at b&n with k
- wed, 1/18 - pad c u
- thurs, 1/19 - happy hour
- fri, 1/20 - b&n, social 121
- sat, 1/21 - chinese new year lunch with family