an empty mind of nothing or a mindcluster of... stress

"mode: vacation vs work"

range of spectrum of how i function is quite simple: black and white, yes or no, vacation or work... business or pleasure?

i stare at the dark skies, clear and beautiful, filled with glistening stars.  i take in the peaceful ambience and humbling emotion of my existence in the world. i dream for even the possibility of experiencing this every day of my life.  my mind starts to wonder. my body starts to relax. and my soul smiles.  i listen to the waves of the ocean crash on the shores of the beach; its inconsistency becomes rhythmic and its violence upon hitting the land becomes calming. nature morphs into one, and you are part of it.

i stare at my to-do list, endless and horrific, filled with countless minor tasks adding up to great life plans, whether it contributes to my career goals or to friends' celebrations, birthday or marriage or new child, whatever the case.  i breathe in the overwhelming load i am about to take on and breathe out the negative chi to hopefully better ease my mind, body, and soul.  my mind starts to focus. my body starts to tense. and my soul reminds itself of the good i should do. i know the frenzy will converge and the pulse will stabilize, just need to breathe.